• blog,  poetry,  Thoughts

    Amputation

    A part of my heart has been amputated,removed by the scalpel of his words,leaving me wanting for the phantom of our future that is no longer and never will be. A part of my heart has been amputated,it beats differently…

  • divorce,  Grief,  Thoughts

    You could never forgive me

    That is the last e-mail you sent to me and it has made me angry. My therapist has asked me when I’m going to be angry with you and I think I’m getting there. I am angry because while you…

  • blog,  Dating,  new life,  Thoughts

    Let’s be exclusive!

    A couple of men I have dated and who I felt there was a connection to seemed to want to be “exclusive” right away. According to Urban Dictionary, the definition for exclusiveness in a dating relationship means the following: The state…

  • divorce,  Grief,  Thoughts

    The Maze

    There are times when I feel like I’m not making any progress as I work through this grief. I worry that some people think I should give over it already (including the stbx) and are just tired of me talking…

  • blog,  divorce,  Grief,  Thoughts

    Death by a Thousand Cuts

    When my  soon to be ex (stbx) informed me on July 2nd, 2017, that we (meaning he) was done, I literally felt like I couldn’t breathe. If he had stood in front of me and punched me in the stomach,…

  • blog,  divorce,  separation,  Thoughts

    An open letter

    Dear M, I’ve thought a lot about writing this letter to you. I’m conflicted because I don’t want to pay attention to you and have you think that you are a constant presence in my life. Trust me when I…

  • blog,  new life,  Thoughts,  Thoughts

    Update on my life

    There has been a lot going on with me since my last update. I have more good days than bad days, but I’ve been able to power through on the bad days and make it to the next, embracing it…