Sometimes change happens, even if you don’t want it. If you have been reading my blog for any length of time, you know that I was thrust into a change that I never anticipated, nor wanted. And I’m still working on what the change means for me and for what kind of life I want for the remaining days (and years, I hope) I have on this planet.

Other change is what we want to see happen because we aren’t particularly satisfied with something. Right now, that’s the kind of change I’m seeking and I’m working on motivation. I do not like feeling fat. I do not like feeling lethargic. I get trapped though and part of it is because I have this constant voice in my head to NOT DO THE THING I want to do.

This is the voice of self doubt and worry of what other people think. I hate fucking hate it.

This is the voice that keeps me inside of my apartment instead going out and exploring. Living the life I want instead of the life I’m imagining.

So I’m challenging myself right now. On this blog. Holding myself accountable publicly!

This week I will:

  1. Take myself out to dinner on a date with myself
  2. Go jogging three times
  3. Plan a quick week-end trip to some place I’ve not been before.


  1. Amanda says:

    I love this challenge and need it too. I can’t wait to hear about your success. This week I will: (1) go to spin class; (2) go to a meetup party on Saturday and meet some new people; and (3) plan a weekend trip (stealing yours because it is something I’ve held back on and could really use).

    1. christal says:

      Yay! I love that you are doing this for yourself! Let me know how it goes.

    2. Cilka says:

      Love that. Sometimes i have to force myself to go out and do things. Actually my social life is better now than it was during my marriage.

  2. Pamela Smith says:

    Thanks Christal, I’m feeling overweight also and I make the excuse of not being able to walk as much as usual as I have a sore foot but I could actually eat less and try other forms of exercise! If it is to be, it is up to me!

    1. christal says:

      It all starts with small actions which build on bigger actions. And not being discouraged too much when we have set backs. You’ve got this!

  3. Those are excellent goals for yourself! Change is hard, even when we do choose it. When we don’t, it causes all sorts of self-doubt and insecurity.

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