• blog,  divorce,  Thoughts,  Write Into Light

    Suck it up Buttercup!

    When you start missing him, you need to remind yourself of the torture he inflicted upon you. Someone who claims to love and care about another would not have done what he did. You need to remind yourself that you…

  • blog,  poetry,  Thoughts

    Amputation

    A part of my heart has been amputated,removed by the scalpel of his words,leaving me wanting for the phantom of our future that is no longer and never will be. A part of my heart has been amputated,it beats differently…

  • divorce,  Grief,  Thoughts

    You could never forgive me

    That is the last e-mail you sent to me and it has made me angry. My therapist has asked me when I’m going to be angry with you and I think I’m getting there. I am angry because while you…

  • Adventures,  blog,  Dating,  divorce

    adventures in dating

    Back in February of this year, I decided to take the plunge and explore the world of online dating. Truthfully, I never thought that this would be a world that I would be a part of because I never imagined…

  • divorce,  Grief,  Thoughts

    The Maze

    There are times when I feel like I’m not making any progress as I work through this grief. I worry that some people think I should give over it already (including the stbx) and are just tired of me talking…

  • blog,  divorce,  separation,  Thoughts

    An open letter

    Dear M, I’ve thought a lot about writing this letter to you. I’m conflicted because I don’t want to pay attention to you and have you think that you are a constant presence in my life. Trust me when I…

  • blog,  new life,  Thoughts,  Thoughts

    Update on my life

    There has been a lot going on with me since my last update. I have more good days than bad days, but I’ve been able to power through on the bad days and make it to the next, embracing it…