It’s been two years since my life changed in a way that I never anticipated. I still struggle with being alone. I still struggle with this new reality. So much has changed over these past two years. I think it’s hard when you are forced to make a decision that you never wanted nor anticipated. And again, I struggle because I think I should be further along and that I shouldn’t miss my old life (and him) so much.
So I’m kind of feeling stuck at the moment. Which means I probably need to do something to kick-start me in a new direction.
I need to plan something to do for next July. Create new memories for July.
The ground shifted Under her feet Unexpectedly Forever changing What she knew
Scared to cross the crevice Of the old into the new
Uncertainty filling the chasm she steps across the space knowing the cost
It is the loss of almost all that she holds dear in order to save herself